Art and Stuff and Things

I've found myself in need more more discipline when it comes to creating.

I've become so scattered in all of the tasks I set for myself. I have so many hobbies and interests I want to pursue that I get overwhelmed.

I want to train to be fit, I want to get better at violin, I want to cook healthy food, I want to paint with actual paint, I want to make digital comics, I want to paint miniatures, I want to play D&D, I want to learn Italian, I want to learn ALL TEH LANGUAGES of all the places I want to travel - and I want to travel everywhere.

I've always considered myself a Jack-of-all-trades. I want to know everything there is to know. I want to be the ultimate non-performing bard who can juggle, play any instrument, and know all forms of dance. Who can paint and sculpt and create in any medium. The brilliant polyglot in spoken language and code and music. I am the loremaster bard. Who knows about every major pantheon in history, and can tell you a short story from every culture to have existed. I could tell you about magic, and tarot cards, and stone properties and herbs. I can decorate my house perfectly every time the seasons change. I can cook anything, and grow a beautiful garden. I can fix a car and decorate a cake and build my own computer and sing. I can do parkour and handstands and rope dancing and slack-line. I can surf and scuba dive. I can hold my breath for 5 minutes under water. I can rock-climb all day and my arms don't get tired.

I want everything. I want to be able to do that.

But I need to focus. I need to tone it down and become good at something instead of "meh" at everything. I need to find the few things I really, truly enjoy, and stick to those - even if its just for a while.

The most important one is my fitness. I'm tired of this extra weight. I want to be stronger, with more endurance. I want to be more fit.

I keep trying to play difficult pieces with my violin, and I get frustrated. I need to go back to my course book and progress at a normal level. I'm being too hard on myself. I also need to get over the fear of bugging my neighbors, and just play at reasonable hours.

I need to focus on comic-writing as well. Thats something I'd ultimately love to do, so I had better start now.

I also need to paint more on canvas. The holidays are coming up, and its the perfect time to work on some gifts.

I also want to buckle down on my Italian. I've studied it off and on for over a year now, but I feel like I know very little. I have GOT to get tough and stick to a real schedule.

I'll be using this blog to help me focus on art, and to showoff my progress.
This is my accountability.

I just need to stick with it.